defying gravity

My life has taken a lot of twist and turns in the last few months, and the stress of it all has been weighing heavy on my heart. so, to lift my spirits i like to reenact scenes from some of my favorite Broadway musicals!

(i know i am not the only one who does it!) 

but anyway, as i was listening/singing along with  THIS SONG  on my "Wicked" album... this bit of dialog hit me like a ton of bricks...

GLINDA:  "Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry:
 You can still be with the Wizard
What you've worked and waited for
You can have all you ever wanted"...

ELPHABA:  "I know:  But I don't want it -
no - I can't want it, Anymore...

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap!

It's time to try Defying gravity"...

And as i stood there bawling, i realized i have come to this point, where the dreams and ideals i once had and thought i needed to find happiness in this life, are not what is important anymore.

That there was a change happening inside my heart. and tho, those dreams were not bad or wrong. i realized my focus needed to be changed. and The pace i was living, wasn't then in that moment, or ever, going to bring me what i feel the lord wanted for my life.

so i found myself in at a cross road... not knowing...
 Do i keep on my path and stay where i am, and hope lifes storms smooth out the rough edges? 
~OR~
 Do i close my eyes and take the plunge into the unknown, but trusting that the lord won't let me fall.

so the fun part now, is to see how well i deify gravity!

 ...wish me luck!! 

(because i have no idea what i am doing! )