Hey Grandpa!
You have been in my thoughts a lot lately, for lots of different reasons...one being, i got to teach the young women in church the other Sunday. i shared the picture of you and William (on his blessing day) as i told how we decided to name him after you, because you were an amazing man, and how i hoped my William would grow to honor his name, just like we should grow to honor the name of Christ that we take upon ourselves. (I got a little more emotional then i thought i would)
I also am planning "an evening with the patriarch," where i have invited the stake patriarch and his wife to come have dinner with the young women of our ward, and have the girls get to know him better and ask him questions and learn about the process and importance of receiving a patriarchal blessing. i thought, how lucky i was to get my grandpa to give me mine, how i didn't have to worry about the person giving me the most important personal blessing of my life being a stranger, or just some guy who didn't know me, which inspired my idea to have the girls get to know him before hand. ( so i thank you for that.)
Sometimes i read my blessing and remember vividly the timber in your voice and the warmth of the tears running down my cheeks, as you spoke for God, directly to me. i wish every person could have as wonderful of an experience as mine.
I don't know if angels are allowed to check social media, but i hope that if you do and are reading this.... you know how much i loved you and grandma! how sorry i am that i didn't call or write you more often, after her passing,. even tho i wanted to... i was so scared my emotions would get the better of me and i would just end up crying on the phone to you, because of how much i missed her and how much i missed the man that you were with her by your side, and how i longed to see you smile like you used to and hear you laugh . instead of hearing the sounds of your sobs, and watching you crumble and weep as they closed her casket. which haunted me every time i thought of reaching out to you.
But now that some time has passed i am noticing i am remembering more and more, the good memories i had with you both, and realizing just how much you have helped shape my life for good. in little quite ways, but that some how reach deep into my heart. (so thank you for that too! )
And thank you for watching out for me while on the other side, i have felt your presence in my life, and am grateful for the reminders that you are still here, just in a different way. i hold on to your faith, and the faith you helped instill in my parents, when this world kind of shakes mine up a bit. i know God better because of you both.
I miss you tonight and for always.
till we meet again
love,
alina
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