Dealing with depression sucks....

Dealing with depression sucks.... 
but this song has brought my soul some comfort today as i sang the words that echo the needs of my heart; for God to help, and be with me on days like today, where i just feel swallowed up in the darkness of this stupid disease.

 i was on the brink of more tears and helplessness as the idea came to me: to video me singing the words that played over in my mind all morning...
so YES , i had been crying, YEs, my hair isn't done and Yes, i know i look a mess ... but when i made this clip i felt it important to be as honest with its delivery and where i was coming from as possible... so i hope the spirit of this song will shine past my rendition of it. and bring some comfort to anyone who feels they need God to hold them a little closer today...

Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;

1. The darkness deepens; Lord, with me abide;
   When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
   Help of the helpless, oh, abide with me.
2. Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day;
   Earth’s joys grow dim, its glories pass away;
   Change and decay in all around I see—
   O Thou who changest not, abide with me.
3. I need Thy presence every passing hour;
   What but Thy grace can foil the tempter’s pow’r?
   Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
   Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
4. I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
   Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness;
   Where is death’s sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
   I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
5. Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
   Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies;
   Heav’n’s morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee;
   In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.